Since we got back from vacation, life has felt a little rough. Sebastian hasn't been himself and has been very clingy, not sleeping well, occasionally refusing to eat - we're wondering if this is just an adjustment from being back from vacation or something else - illness lurking, teething, etc. His poor sleeping patterns have been trying on us physically and emotionally - we've both been exhausted, and I seemed to manage to mess up my neck royally by sleeping in a very akward position several nights in a row so as to protect my little babe - who would only sleep if sleeping with us.
I also began a new schedule at work which includes multiple double bookings in order to increase productivity by accounting for our no-show rate. I was the last provider to move to this schedule, because they were waiting for Sebastian to start solids. For that, I'm so very thankful... but it was a difficult transition to go back to work after a week of vacation. The mommy guilt was at a high level - I almost felt like I was going back to work after maternity leave all over again - and I had this new schedule to deal with...
In the midst of it all, I have not felt like I was in the Christmas mood or spirit at all... it's barely crossed my mind, and I recognize that it's fast approaching. We don't have any decorations, I have no gifts (let alone ideas!), and I haven't been in church for almost a month because of being on call and then vacation... so the concept of Advent floats around in my head, but doesn't yet seem a reality. Sigh... Not exactly how I'd like to feel or be around Advent... especially for Sebastian's first go-around with Christmas.
In an effort to relax a bit this afternoon (I had a very early meeting that I was NOT looking forward to this morning, followed by a long day of rounding at the hospital), I decided to play around a bit with the Jib Jab Elf videos to get some comic relief and work towards some holiday cheer.
So, here you have it - live and for the first time - the Johnsen Martin Elves performing a holiday disco dance. There were five options, but I chose to post this one, because it seemed to be Sebastian's favorite. He squealed in delight and flapped his little arms and legs when he saw this video.
So enjoy! Here's to the holiday season... may it find its way into our home and hearts very soon!
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